Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Thank You

This is for each member of the jury that sat on our case. 
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I have thought about you a lot over the years. Knowing that you were the one that would make the decision. I prayed for you when you were chosen. I prayed for you each day we were together. I prayed for you when you listened to us, as a mom and dad of a little girl. I prayed for you as you made your decision. I have prayed for you since that day. 
We can take care of Lizzy for the rest of her life because of the decision you made on April 13, 2005. I am forever grateful to you. You listened. You understood. You loved. You were compassionate. You showed mercy. You validated us. 
I remember walking outside of the courthouse and a car pulling up with arms flailing and tears coming from your eyes. Wanting to touch and hug us. I wish I knew you now. It breaks my heart that we are strangers now. Even now, I sob, wishing I could hug you. I would call you friend. 
You would love Lizzy. She would love you. She is a happy girl. She is so healthy. She hardly ever gets sick. She giggles so much. I wish you could sit with her for just five minutes. 
We don’t know each other now and I understand that and how the mind works. We may be just a memory to you but I remember you. You are apart of our family and I will always be thankful for you. God bless you.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

After The Trial

Before I get into money, I want to say this.  I felt The Lord at every moment in that courtroom.  For example, the judge that normally presides in Sumter, for some reason that I can’t remember, swapped time with our judge.  So having a mother as a judge made me feel so much better.  I remember her warm smile. Her name was The Honorable Paula H. Thomas. We ultimately give God all the praise and glory in our journey. His blessings have been abundant and we are humbled.


I was teaching fourth grade and I loved it. I would still be teaching and would be in my 16th year had Lizzy been born without complications.  We would live in a normal sized home just like our other teacher friends.  I worked with so many wonderful women (and a few men) that supported me throughout this journey.  I will always be grateful for their friendship and love.  I miss them. I loved my Wilder Family!!

Damon and I decided that because Lizzy was starting preschool in the public school at 3 years old and just having Emily, it would be best for me to stay home. Going from two incomes to one was extremely difficult. This was in 2002. Three years before our trial.

We went back to court two more times before we would receive Lizzy’s money. It wasn’t until 2006 that we had it. All of it has been invested. My astro van died picking up Emily from preschool in 2005. We traded it in for a beautiful brand new Honda Odyssey. It was perfect. It was this year that Damon made me trade it in. It had 170,000 miles on it.  I cried over that van.  It was perfect for Lizzy. We did get another Odyssey, but it’s not the same.  However, I have stopped crying over it.

We had a home built in 2007. Damon had an idea of what he wanted for Lizzy. We definitely wanted a therapy gym for her, her own ADA (Americans with Disability Act) bathroom, and a good size bedroom for her to move around in.  Lizzy is legally blind so it wasn’t going to be glamorous because that isn’t what she needs.  In fact, nothing in our life is or has ever been glamorous.  So with Damon’s idea drawn out, along with our builder (who is our neighbor) our home was planned.  If you were to pull up to our home, you won’t see pillars or lion statues. Nothing fancy, in fact, one of our garage doors isn’t working. 

Damon still has his 2005 Toyota Tundra. It just hit 100,000 miles.

Last year (2014) we purchased a 2007 motor home. We would take a family vacation and Lizzy would have to stay back because of travel issues.  I would cry every time and say “this isn’t a family vacation when one of us isn’t here.” I was so sad. So Damon said a few years back, this is something we need.  We will save a little and then get it. Hands down, the best purchase we ever made and one of the best decisions!!!!

We had a life care planner help with what we would need for Lizzy for the future. Basically, we went to court to receive a stipend each month to care for Lizzy. With what we won for Lizzy, we can care for her for the rest of her life.  We fought tooth and nail for that little girl. 

We said from the very beginning that this was Lizzy’s money. We want to use it in a way that she would be proud of us. And we have done just that. We are a charitable family. We see a need; we will help fill that need. That is what Lizzy would want, I’m sure of that. We try to be good stewards of her money.

We know that people are curious and have always answered questions honestly and openly. We have never flaunted or been showy about it.  Damon and I are the same people that we were before we won that day. We just have, like, five more dollars in the bankJ

We have experienced people who are “jealous” of what we have.  Some of them didn’t know about Lizzy and some of them did. For those that did know, we would give every cent back to have our Lizzy say “I love you,” or “hey dad”.  In a heartbeat, every penny!!!!  I would also say to them, “let’s trade lives for just an hour.”  You can tell when someone is genuine and sincere. They ask about Lizzy and really want to know how she is. 

Lizzy will be 16 this year.  We are ready.


Side note: I asked Damon to read over this for me and add or take out anything he wanted.  He says it has a different feel to it.  It’s a little edgy. Let me say this.  I would never want to offend or hurt anyone with anything that I say.  Our focus has always been about Lizzy.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Ten Years Ago - Day Four

April 13, 2005

Day Four

This day was going to be hard to get through. My heart was beating out of my chest when I took my seat at the front. Damon was quiet this morning.  The defense was going to make this look like we slapped her, banged her head against the wall, shook her, and all the other horror stories that I had heard before of abuse.  I hate that they had the last “ups”.  Whatever they said last, I felt, is what the jurors would remember. I was helpless.

They called an expert from a genetic center.  I was familiar with this particular one because it was strongly suggested for me to receive counseling and testing from there.  So for them to call someone from there was confusing. They have no records on us.  The attorney for the doctor asked questions about “studies” and past testing from others and how this case compares. They were hoping for some genetic connection for what happened to Lizzy. I wasn’t impressed and this expert was weak and seemed to hurt their case. The next person they called up was a nurse that was on the floor that night. They asked questions to build up the doctor. What kind of doctor she was? Has she ever had any problems with other birthing experiences? Does she conduct herself in a professional manner? Was she well respected in the community?  All great questions. Then my attorney asked two questions. Did she come into the hospital when you called her at 2:00 am? No sir. Did she come in to the hospital when you called her at 5:00 am? No sir.

 “No further questions, Your Honor.”

They called up the next and last witness. Surprisingly, we had only begun two hours before at that point. My doctor took the oath and then sat down. This wasn’t a criminal case so there was no harsh punishment if she were to lose. This was a malpractice suit, which was a lawsuit against her and the hospital.  The hospital settled a couple months before at our mediation.  Had she agreed to a settlement, we would have avoided court.  Our attorney walked out of our mediation and said, “How insulting, we are going to court!” He knew what he was doing but I was terrified.

I watched her on the witness stand. The way she blinked, moved her hands, adjusted in her seat, and the way her voice would crack. Again, they asked her questions about her stellar 25-year career. She mentioned that she delivered three babies that week with no problems. All healthy babies!! With a big smile on her face.  They asked her about the night I was there. She said she remembered getting those two phone calls but no one expressed any real concern about was going on. They referred back to her deposition now and then. In her career, no one had ever brought a lawsuit against her.

Then they rested and our attorney stood up and walked over to an overhead projector. He just stood next to it and asked her this question.

“When you performed the c-section and you pulled Lizzy out, what color was the amniotic fluid?”

I looked at Damon…confused…again.  Why on earth is this even a relevant question?

The doctor answered, “clear.”
Our attorney asked, “Are you sure?”
The doctor answered, “Absolutely clear.”

Our attorney then turned on the projector and displayed the doctor’s deposition. He then asked “can you read to us what you said in your deposition about the color of the amniotic fluid, please?”

The doctor puts on her glasses and reads it aloud.

                        “The amniotic fluid was slightly yellow.”

I heard “objection”, and “Your Honor, may I approach the bench”. It was clear that my doctor lied and they needed to do some damage control.  Hey, where did that big smile on the doctor’s face go? We rested after a few more questions.

This meant that the closing statements would begin. I was feeling better. Where did the abuse accusation go?

After both sides finished, the judge spoke to the jury, like she did everyday.  This time was different. They were to have lunch in the deliberation room. This is where they would decide on our case. Then they left. Damon and I quietly left and when down the street to a fast food joint and ate our lunch. We sat and talked for a while. Then we got a phone call. Our attorney was telling us that the jury had reached a decision and we should come back to the courthouse.  It had only been two hours.

We get back to the courthouse and sit down with our attorney in the middle of the room in one of the “pews”.  He told us that this was not a good sign. Only deliberating for two hours is worrisome. As we were talking, one of the female defense attorneys came over to me.  Put her hand on my shoulder, and said to me, “Mrs. Viele, I know that you are a good mom.” I said thank you and she took her seat. 

Everyone assembled back into the courtroom and there was silence.  The judge speaks to the jury and to the attorneys for a few minutes. Then it happened. The foreman handed the paper to the officer who handed it to the judge.  She reads it and gives it back. The officer hands it to another man (not sure who he was) and he reads it out loud.

“We the jury find in favor of the plaintiffs in the amount of ________________.”  (Our case was public and so you can just Google it)

Damon and I just fell into each other and sobbed. I mean full on sobbing! Our attorney and his wife were crying. The jurors were crying. It was surreal.

The judge basically released the jury and that really was it. We walked outside and some of the jurors were waiting for us. Crying and telling us they were praying for us. Telling us it would never be enough but gave us extra on top of what we were asking. 


We would have to go back to court in the next year and get Lizzy’s money.  The doctor was going to try and appeal it but never did. 

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Ten Years Ago - Day Three

April 12, 2005

Day Three.

This was our day. The day, the jury would be able to hear us. Hear our voice. I was terrified. Damon was too but never showed it. Our attorney had specific instructions for when we were on the stand. Speak clearly and speak to the people on the jury. Look into their eyes when we spoke. Sounds easy enough.

Damon was first. Lizzy’s dad.  "Do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help you God?” This was real.  Hand on the Bible. He was asked many questions about Lizzy. Many questions about the night I was in labor. Questions about how life has been with a child like Lizzy. I looked at the jury at one point and saw the men crying. You could hear the sniffling, whimpering, and pulling tissue from the boxes. Damon broke a few times and that was hard to see.  It wasn’t often that I saw this man cry. I saw his hurt. He was sad about Lizzy.

Summer 1999

We decided not to find out the sex of the baby. This was our first and wanted to be surprised.  We went to a new parent class at our local hospital and we were the only couple that didn’t know. Damon “just knew” it was going to be a boy. So much that he painted the baby room blue!!  It was called angel blue. Our baby showers were generic with gifts that could go for a boy or a girl.  I’m sure he had all his teaching friends that he was having a boy too. We were getting a lot of blue gifts.  I mean a blue pack and play. At one point, I said, “There is a chance we are having a girl D.” This is when he said, “I will do everything with a little girl that I can do with a little boy, so that would be great too.”

April 12, 2000

After our attorney finished with Damon, the defense just pounced. We had our depositions maybe two years before this. So for us to remember what we said and have the exact answer was a bit difficult. They would ask him a question and then give him a copy of his deposition and ask for clarification. Then our attorney would object and we would wait for the judge to discuss the answers with both attorneys at her bench.  This kind of stuff ate up a lot of time. Over all, Damon was strong and I am proud of him.  This was difficult as I was to learn.

I remember asking our attorney if I should bring the “book”. He said yes, take it up with you discretely.  I walked up to the stand and was told to raise my right hand and place my left on the Bible.  I set the “book” in my lap and looked at Damon.  I started to weep a little. I felt alone up there. He saw that and shot me those warm eyes with a nod of “you got this babe”.  I immediately felt less tense.

The very first thing was to show a video of Lizzy to the jurors. This was the first time they would put a face with a name. Lots of smiling through tears. Apparently, I was the witness they were really waiting for.  I was her mom.  I experienced everything.  I carried her and gave birth to her. My testimony would be crucial. 

After the video, my attorney started with some simple questions to get me warmed up and comfortable.  I had a very hard time looking at the jurors. I couldn’t because of the crying.  They were crying for us.  For Lizzy. They were parents, grandparents, uncles, aunts, sisters, and brothers. It was hard for them to sit and listen to this. Not being able to look at them, my attorney moved right in front of them so I was forced to “look” that way.  I remember being up there for some time. His questions were easy to answer.

During the defenses opening statements, they immediately put abuse at the forefront. Calling our lawsuit a frivolous one.  They wanted the jurors to know that my doctor that delivered Lizzy was well respected in the community. She had a successful 25 years as an obstetrician/gynecologist with many healthy babies being delivered.  She sat with her attorney’s everyday and never looked at us. Its not everyday you get accused of abusing your precious baby girl.  I know what abuse is and have experienced it first hand. We tried for years to have a baby and she was wanted and planned for. So I was ready for everyone in that courtroom to see the “book”.

April 2000

I was playing a game of scrabble with my mother in law and had Lizzy in her car seat on the floor next to me.  She was sleeping and was going to wait until she woke up to take her out of it.  While playing, I knocked off a pocket dictionary off the table and it fell on Lizzy.  She woke up and cried for 30 seconds and I rocked her back to sleep. I put her in her crib and that was the end of it. This “book” is part of a desk reference set that had 75 pages in it.  It was a hardbound book.  It was the smallest book in the set. Lizzy had no markings on her from it. I was honest about everything and made sure it was in my deposition.


April 12, 2005

Knowing that that incident could not cause the kind of disability we were experiencing, I was not worried.  What I was worried about is the jurors thinking this is what caused her to be the way she was.  This was the reason for having the “book”.  When the defense attorney made his opening statement, he said that I purposely dropped a huge dictionary on her. I immediately strongly disliked him and the two women he had with him. 

My attorney finally gets to the “book” and I get butterflies.  He said “Lisa, you have been accused of dropping a huge and heavy dictionary on Lizzy.  Do you have this huge book with you today?” I said, “Yes sir.” He then asks me to hold up the book for everyone to see. So I hold it up and look at the jury. Lots of smiles, which made me, feel good. 

The defense had their time also. They scared me. They asked questions about her Medicaid and expected me to know all about it.  All I know about Medicaid is that they were paying for all her medicines, doctor visits and therapies. They tried to trip me up, but the judge wouldn’t have it. My experience on that stand was like no other.  I felt so many emotions while there.  Anger, sadness, bitterness, hate, love, compassion, loneliness, and fear. 


We were done. I was the last witness. It was their time. Tomorrow will be hard; as they would try to convince the jury we abused her.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Ten Years Ago - Day Two

April 11, 2005

Day two.  We were told to wear clothes that we would wear to work.  So Damon looked like he was going to school everyday and I looked...presentable.  I was a stay at home mom so my go to clothes were leggings and a sweatshirt.  Our attorneys would explain to us what would happen that day. Experts they would call. Just keeping us in the mix. Really, we just sat there and listened. We really had no part in these first two days.  Day three would be our time.

We had our friend/pediatrician take the stand. He was great. He was there at her birth. I remember him coming into my recovery room with Damon.  It was 7:00 at night and I still had not seen Lizzy. She was born at 9:00 that morning.  Damon shut the tv off and sat down in the chair in the corner of the room and put his head in his hands.  Dr. Key sat on my bed and took my hand. He told me that there was nothing more they could do for her here at this hospital and that she needed to be transported to the children’s hospital.  I had no idea that there was anything wrong.  I cried and begged to see her before she left. They rolled in this tube with her in it.  They opened it up and I was able to touch her toe. I would hold her three days later.

Damon coached his son in basketball.  However, there was a time when he had to make a tough medical decision with us, and it was painful.

January 2000

Lizzy had a well baby check up with Dr. Key. She was three months old.  He did the normal checks with her. Weigh, height, head circumference, and asked how she was with her seizure medicine. The only side effect was that she was a lethargic baby. Phenobarbital is a strong seizure medicine and I hate it. The hospital needed to stop her seizures at birth and that is what they started her on. She would come off in a few months because she was showing no development.  Her check up was uneventful and we left.  A week later I get a call from the neurologist that saw her at the children’s hospital. It was after school when I got the call from him.  He sounded panicked. He told me that he received her latest cat scan of her brain and she was bleeding. She had a cat scan at birth and follow up one in late December.  He told me to get to children’s hospital immediately. My heart began pumping so fast and I was just crying. I scooped baby girl up and strapped her in the Astro van and we headed to the high school.  Damon was in basketball practice and he saw me walk in and ran towards me. I told him what the neurologist told me and we left.  We get to the children’s hospital in a panic.  Oddly, no one else was. Her doctor was not there and we waited an hour to get a room. The whole situation just got weird. When we finally got a room for her, a nurse would come in here and there and check on her. Lizzy was calm and happy. So we stayed overnight because they told us to. They said the ophthalmologist would be in the next day. The ophthalmologist?  Isn’t that an eye doctor?  The next morning, the ophthalmologist came in to examine Lizzy. Told us she has some visual defects and gave us a referral to see a local eye doctor. This was the first that we knew of any disabilities with her. They he said “I don’t see any tears (not watery), and the cornea looks fine.”  Crickets in the room.  “Um, what?” I was confused.  Then he just left the room. The next person to walk into the room almost made me vomit. She introduced herself as a social worker for the county. I just about lost it. What was happening here? As she examined Lizzy, she just stopped and her head dropped. She says that she is done and that she feels bad even walking into our room today. She said she was so sorry. We are a loving couple with a beautiful baby and she knows that we haven’t abused her. Now I could have lost it but felt grateful for her. She was gentle and kind with us. But, honestly, I was still confused why she was even there. We were discharged immediately after she left.

We followed up with Dr. Key a few days later and this is where he dropped the bomb.  When we had seen him for her well baby check up, he measured her head. Finding that it had grown very little since birth, he was concerned. He called her neurologist and discussed her latest cat scan. Her neurologist assumed that she was being abused.  Dr. Key told him he knows that that was not true but as a physician, he was legally responsible to report it. I was in tears at this point. Damon’s jaw had dropped open about two seconds into Dr. Key opening his mouth. Dr. Key was just heartbroken he had to do this. When he spoke with the neurologist he told him to get this done quick, rip it off like a band-aid. Lizzy was admitted for protective custody.  They were watching us interact with her.  He apologized then went on to explain the “bleeding on the brain” cat scans.  Lizzy had a scan at birth. There were no issues and her brain look normal.  Her late December 1999 scans showed a different brain. One that had shrunk and pulled blood vessels.  Her brain at birth was swollen from the trauma and the swelling had gone down in these three months and caused bleeding from the pulling of the blood vessels.  I could use medical words but won’t.  This is when she was diagnosed with microcephaly. Which is a rare neurological condition in which the head is smaller than other normal heads.


April 11, 2000

Dr. Key was a great expert witness. He made us feel great, telling the jury what kind of parents we were. That our families go to church together and that Damon was a great teacher and coach.  Then the defense would try to discredit everything by digging up “dirt” on us. There was none but they tried. For example, after I had Emily in 2002, I took a break from Lizzy’s therapies. Just for a few weeks. They tried to say a good mother wouldn’t have taken a break. I won’t lie, I felt a little bad taking a break after hearing that but it was four years ago at that point so I moved on.


This is how it would go for the day. We would have witnesses take the stand and the defense would refer back to their depositions and try to make them slip up. Tomorrow would be hard.  Damon and I would take the stand. How do you prepare for that?  You don’t.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Ten Years Ago - Day One

10 years ago today we started our trial. I remember it. Well, most of it. Lizzy was 5. I was 31 and Damon was 32. We had moved from Sumter to Myrtle Beach in 2003. Damon was teaching and coaching. Same thing he did in Sumter. A brand new school opened and he was blessed to get right in and become the head golf coach. I was a stay at home mom to Lizzy and Em, who was 2 at the time.  Lizzy was going to school and Em was in preschool. I was still driving my Astro van. I loved it.  All Lizzy’s equipment could fit in the back.

We arrived at the courthouse after staying in a hotel in Sumter, SC.  This is where she was born so naturally  this is where the trial was. I was so anxious. I remember walking into the courtroom just shaking. I had never been in a courtroom before. It was intimidating. We were told to sit to the left of the courtroom.  Not in the front but in one of the “pews” in the courtroom. The right side was about 100 potential jurors. They were summoned for jury duty for our case. A case that started in 2000.  It was a long 5 years of excruciating ups and downs.

October 1999

I came home after getting my records from the hospital (finally) and immediately contacted the first attorney I could find that “looked” professional.  I didn’t know any better and I was desperate. My intuition had kicked in. I knew I wanted someone with lots of experience.  This was only after having an argument with Damon about it. He was totally against any kind of litigation. Too public. He said no. I said yes. I called this attorney at 7:30 at night and he took my call. Thank you Mr. Pat McWhirter.  He listened to me for a very long time. He said he would help us. I felt relieved already. He called me a few days later and said that he had spoken with Ken Suggs in Columbia and he would take our case. And just like that, we had representation. Not one penny upfront.

April 10, 2005

As I sat in the courtroom, I looked at the people that were there to sit on the jury for our case. I was nervous that they weren’t  able to understand what happened or that they would assume things about us as parents. I knew what the defense was going to do, and it was going to hurt. Bad.

The judge walks in and just starts with the elimination of people. She asked several questions to the group including these

o   Have you ever been a juror on a malpractice case before?
o   Are you a teacher?
o   Have you ever known the plaintiffs?
o   Have you ever brought a lawsuit again anyone?

If they answered yes, they would go up to the judge and explain further. Then she would dismiss them. Amazingly we ended up with just the right amount.  12 jurors with 2 alternates.  And so the trial began…immediately.

We moved to the table in front of the courtroom. This was our place for the next four days.  Right next to the jury.  They watched us those four days too. Our attorney had his opening statement. Then called our first witness. I will always remember this guy. He had dark hair. Thin. Just a regular guy. He was an obstetrician/gynecologist. He stopped working for personal reasons and was living with his parents. When he opened his mouth, I was stunned by what he said about Lizzy. As a doctor, he said he would have delivered her at 11:00 pm, the night before!!  This man was emotional about Lizzy. He taught all of us how to read a fetal monitor strip. I just cried. Now I know why those monitor strips were missing from my records when I finally got them.

After we broke for the day, we met him outside the courtroom and he just broke down. Hugged us and told us how sorry he was.  His testimony was strong.


When we left court for that first day, we went back to our hotel room. Damon and I would talk a bit about the day. We were tired. It ‘s emotional. Bedtime was early for us. We would go all day these four days.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

How Long

I have much to be happy about. I have a wonderful husband that loves me unconditionally and supports me endlessly. My three children are healthy and beautiful. I have my health and my relationship with God that keeps me in awe of everything that I have.

But even with a life that seems, on the outside, to be perfect (as some say without knowing). It does get dark. Very dark. I have been struggling. I hate it. With everything that is so good in my life, why do I really have to struggle so much?

Lizzy is our oldest of three. Born at 40 weeks with a healthy pregnancy, she was never going to be our “oldest”. Our strong leader that the first born usually is. I have grieved this many years go and am ok with it. Grieving milestones has helped me cope over the years. My struggle is real. I am sure that many parents of disabled kids or adults are dealing with.  While the urge to judge is strong, please understand, I don’t want to feel this way.

How long do I have to do this? Lizzy has shown little progression over the years. Why would a loving God choose this for my life? What is the plan here? Am I doing something wrong here? I have never prayed for complete healing. Lizzy is a gift. I have always felt that if I did pray for that it would be like exchanging a precious gift for a shiny new one. I just feel terrible about doing that. I am thankful for his gift to us.  It has nothing to do with getting a break from her because she is in school everyday for 7.5 hours a day. Mentally, this is hard.  My mind is consumed with is Lizzy hungry, tired, having a seizure, needing to be changed, too cold, in pain, happy, upset, etc.  All day everyday.  I understand that as moms, we do this with normal children too. I get that. There is no mental break. I go to sleep and wake up with thoughts of Lizzy.

I can do this physically because I’m healthy. So as long as I stay healthy, this is possible. But there is a chance that I could break down mentally. It happens. It is real. I know this. I know a lady that I respect more than anyone. She cares for her 35-year-old daughter who is more disabled than Lizzy is. I reach out to her when I am struggling. I cried when I read her response to my struggle. Honestly, I don’t want to do this for 35 years.

So this is how I have been praying recently. Just like I am taking to a friend…God, can you either a) heal her? or b) take her? because this is becoming too much for me. Do you want to see me struggle? I was talking with Emily and Jack about this. Jack says, “yes, mom, you should pray for Lizzy to be like us.”  Lizzy will be 16 this year and I am ready. Ready for a change.

I have never had nor currently have thoughts of hurting her or myself.

I have been told that my struggle helps others. That my words gives others encouragement and strength to make it through their day. I know that other moms with kids like Lizzy are struggling.

I am thankful, I really am.
I am blessed and I know it.
How long Lord?





Power Tripping

I have never been a person that starts a fight. I do not enjoy drama in my life.  I certainly don’t shy away from it.  It depends on how important it is to me and if it will impact my life. I try to live my life with the upmost of morals and values. Until you cross me or my Lizzy.  I can go from 0 to 60 in 1.3 seconds when it comes to my Elizabeth. I can sniff you out and tell if you have pure motives or not.

I was late picking Lizzy up from school one afternoon. Ten minutes to be exact. I am pretty sure that I have been late in picking her up from school over the past 12 years. In fact, I am 100% positive I have!!! But, it never created such turmoil as this incident did.

I don’t pretend that I have a “pass” because I have a child with special needs. I try, like other parents, to be one time, have lunch for their child, sign forms when needed, etc. However, I do expect some flexibility when it comes to her.  Being late dropping her off falls under the category of flexibility.  I was late picking her up so….

It started with “darn, I’m sorry I’m late” to “say what now?

An administrator, who was new, decided to go on a power trip……just for fun. I had never met her. Had we met, I think she would have thought twice about that trip. I don’t play that game and most know this. I was no longer allowed to just drop her off or pick her up. I had to walk inside the school and sign her in and out. For 12 years, the teacher or aide met me at the van to talk about her day and help me put her in the van. Her aide was no longer allowed to discuss with me details about her day. I am no longer or really have never been allowed to discuss her day with the woman that changes her dirty diapers, holds her during her frequent seizures, spoon feeds her, washes her beautiful face, brushes her teeth, walk hand in hand with her, sings to her, and loves her for 7 hours of the day??? Am I hearing this correctly?

When I respectfully tried to set up a meeting with this administrator, she completely ignored my requests. I called and left a message and sent an email.  This is the email that I sent the following day after no response.


Good afternoon. Due to the lack of respect on Ms. Livingston's part, I now have to discuss this through email. I asked for a meeting twice. Once in an email two days ago and again this morning. A simple call or returned email would have been respectful. Apparently, this was a big deal Tuesday. Now, I can't get a response from anyone I sent the original email to.

I was late picking Lizzy up Tuesday. I usually get her by 2:10 and I got there at 2:20. Her aide walked her back down to her classroom and then walked her back up to the office when they called for her. So I was 10 minutes late. I take responsibility for that. Her aide told me that she is needed back at 2:15 to the classroom. I have picked her up later that
10 minutes late with no problems.

For the last 11 years, Lizzy has been walked out by her aide. With no problems. Lizzy has also had an adapted school day. She has never stayed a full day, that I can remember. I positive I've been late picking her up in the last 11 years. Also, her aide has been the one to come get her in the morning. With there never being a problem.

Yesterday I was told that I had to bring her inside in the morning and sign her out in the afternoon. Also, that her teacher would bring her out.  A teacher? I don't understand that at all. As a parent, I want a certified teacher in the classroom at all times. That is unsettling

I was approached this morning by a woman asking me to move my van. I waited for someone to come get Lizzy for 10 minutes. I asked the woman her name and she said Ms. Livingston. I'm pretty sure she knew who I was. I was walking Lizzy in. I said "oh good, did you get my email yesterday?" She said yes and just stared at me. I was offended. I felt disrespected. I'm not a person that takes "power tripping" well. I was immediately on guard. I asked her to call me to set up a meeting to discuss this and she says to me "oh, you can't do it now?"

I'm educated. I've taught in the public schools. I've been apart of IEP meetings and never treated a parent like Ms. Livingston treated me. And because I haven't received a phone call about setting up a meeting to discuss this ridiculous issue, I had to send this email.


Thank you for your time.

Lisa Viele

I did receive a response from the principal about a meeting. We met. The three of us. This administrator was the most difficult person I have ever dealt with in the school system. She obviously was more intense than the days before. But that is to be expected because I emailed her boss and her boss’s boss and all the way up to the top. Nothing was resolved and the principal was going to check on some things, ie. Protocol and procedures but what happed the next day made all this extremely ridiculous.

While I waited to hear from the district office, I followed their procedures. They weren’t going to win this, but I was going to play their game. But not long. I received texts and phone calls the following morning that Lizzy was have a terrible seizure and I was to come get her. Her teacher and this administrator were the ones contacting me. I thought to myself, is her aide not there with Lizzy? I immediately got in my car and drove the 20 minutes to get to her. I walk in the office and I hear on the walkie talking “she is here”.  I walk into the nurse’s station and see her aide and Lizzy in the back. There were about 6 people standing there wide-eyed and pale. I walk to the back and ask questions and her aide is silent. Someone else is telling me what happened. Here is what happened.

Lizzy and her aide were in a portable. Lizzy started having a seizure. Her aide contacted the teacher and administrator. They contacted me. Huh? No, I don’t think so. I immediately send another email demanding that I speak to anyone that even looks at Lizzy during the day. I gave them until the end of the next day to contact me. I was contacted by a person at the district office apologizing and confirming that I may speak with anyone dealing with Lizzy at any point during the day.

End of story. I have been apologized to by everyone but that administrator. I’m okay with that. I call this person a bully. I was bullied by this administrator but she didn’t get away with it.

I have had several meeting over the years with teachers and administrators. There are a few that have this “this is my school” complex and try to deal with it a certain way. My advice to those just starting out is

    Always take something to write on.  When an administrator is talking write a letter a and circle it along with some talking points. When a teacher is talking, write a letter t and circle it. Just so you know who said what.

    Be respectful. Thank them for the meeting and their time.

    Be firm in saying what you want.

Ie. Your child ‘s physical therapy time is decreasing.  Ask for notes that were taken on that evaluation. If they can’t produce them, tell them that there will be no decrease in time until there is a formal evaluation with notes you can have. Then request another meeting for that specifically. 

If they have notes , tell them you still want pt and make note of it in the meeting notes. Specifically cross out the decrease in pt sentences, with a magic marker. Then you can sign the IEPJ

This happened to us.

   Ask who everyone is.

    Make sure you get a copy of everything before you leave to prevent any altering of the documents. Not everyone is an honest Abe.

    I always have my attorney’s number and a friends email from a local news outlet. They both can be powerful and instrumental in getting what you need. 



Wednesday, November 19, 2014

It really is unbelievable. I mean, I can believe it but statistically, Damon and I should be divorced by now. The divorce rate is 85% among couples with a special needs child. We have fought for our marriage and kept Christ as the center of it. Our marraige isn't without faults, stress, or heartache and we aren't perfect people. I am proud of our marriage and the life we have created for our children. 11/19/94!
I love you Damon!
HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY TO US!!!!!


It was amazing to be here. To be a part of a church that WANTS the unwanted. Jesus. Others. Yourself. The JOY Prom was unbelievable tonight. A night of fellowship and fun for hours. A night when our handicapped daughter can be a part of something normal. Every where I turned, I was asked what could be done for me. I was humbled to tears. Dave Moen and his team went ABOVE and BEYOND this year and it was PHENOMINAL. We, as a family, had a wonderful time. Thank you Beach Church.






Jack took this right before we left the prom. Lizzy was so tired!!


Our church printed up brochures for our Beach Buddies Program. 
They came out B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!



Wednesday, September 24, 2014

This Hurts

This one tore me up. Bad. Lizzy turning 15 made me so sad. Damon too. He teaches kids her age and I work at a driving school that teaches this age group how to drive. It has kept a lump in my throat and the tears in my eyes. 

I almost didn't get her anything. She would never know. But, I went to the toy store and got her toys that make her happy. Baby toys. I had trouble while in the store. Damon found me holding her toys just staring at a shelf of other toys. I couldn't help it. I started to cry. I don't want to buy my 15 year old baby toys. I want to take her to get a learners permit. I want to watch her play a sport. I want to take her shopping. I want. I just want. 

But I hold on to a promise. It keeps me going. That if I just believe, I WILL see the glory of God. John 11:40. 

I do better if I can look forward to something. So I'll just keep believing.


Happy Birthday!!!

You are 15 today, my sweet Lizzygirl. I love you. I know you may not know that your birthday is today but I know you know that I love you. And that makes me happy. 

Happy Birthday Zee Zee.




Wednesday, May 21, 2014

A Text From Mom

I have to tell you. .. .
I just experienced a worship service that might top all. Not a word or sound was made.  I put Liz to bed. I prayed with her as usual. I looked up. She turned on her back, looked up smiled in a beautiful huge dimpled smile. Then she slowly looked in every direction. Slowly turning from side to side and up and down smiling all the time. She laughed and reached out toward ceiling, got up on her elbows, reached for me, hugged me, laid back down and continued to look around smiling.
I'll tell you there were angels in every direction. They were everywhere. I felt like I truly was kneeling on Holy ground.

Just wanted to share that. Thanks for letting her spend the night.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

January.....ALREADY?

So here we go again. That year went by so fast!!! Resolutions. Resolutions. I can come up with 50!

  1. keep more wipes on hand while changing the "fun" diapers.
  2. spot clean the carpet each time instead of spraying febreeze on it....in Lizzy's room.
  3. delete photos from photo stream where Lizzy looks "crazy" or it's blurry
  4. bring Lizzy out more with us
  5. eat healthier
Blah, blah, blah.........I get excited for a new year but dread making any resolutions. I feel like I HAVE to make these resolutions permanent for the rest of my life. Dang. That is why I hate making promises. I am seriously not a yes person. If I say yes, something could come up, and I look like someone that can't make a decision. So if I say maybe or it's possible, then I have an out if I need it. Sounds good right? Eh......

I have a lot of expectations for 2014. I want to accomplish a lot. My marriage will have it's 20th birthday:-) I love my Damon more than EVER. The stress of having a child with cerebral palsy brings so much stress but seems minimal with a partner that WANTS to be there and gives genuine effort. He is the kind of dad that wants family outings to be with everybody. So bringing Lizzy out seems stressful but with him there too, it's manageable. My number one promise to Lizzy and my resolution for 2014 is.................

to include this child in all (or most) of our family outings. I realize that I just gave myself an out!! I couldn't help it.


Isn't she beautiful? Most of the time, she is happy and smiling. But then, there are those times when she isn't like this and I need to bail! Bail....as in "is this really worth it?" I know YOU know what I am talking about. Let's just take a family dinner at a nice, sit down restaurant. I generally feed Lizzy before going anywhere. So we will bring toys and other items that will make her comfortable. So ten minutes in to us being there a fork will hit a plate or dishes will fall in the kitchen...........LOOK OUT........we immediately look to Lizzy and it has scared her into a seizure! We are a family that would rather not have any attention on us so this makes us uncomfortable now because all eyes are on us. I want to bounce...get out of there. I immediately throw toys in the bag and Damon will say, "babe, relax, she'll be fine in a minute." 

I mean, I go into a night like that wanting to take two vehicles and expecting to leave early. But, he is right. With in minutes, she is back to herself.



I have never been embarrassed of Lizzy but would never want to make anyone uncomfortable and seeing a child have a seizure is just that.  Everyone feels helpless. But having seizures isn't the only thing that makes me want to scadaddle. She throws toys, squeals, cries, and screams. I have apologized to others having dinner near us for a toys that ended up on their table or for a loud(er) evening than they wanted. I'm sensitive and always have been. I don't like pushing Lizzy on anyone or her condition.

I love Lizzy so much and want her included. She is our first born and part of our beautiful family.

So.....if you see us out, or anyone with a disability, have mercy on us. We like to be out just as much as you do trying to do normal things too. Be tolerant. Be accepting. Be loving and smile at us. We probably need it.

Happy New Year and God Bless You!!!

Hanging at Target!! Listening to kids music. 



To 2014!!!!! Be safe.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Overcomer

Play this while you read this post! If you are on a mobile device, the video won't play. 

If you are........breathing, then you have had disappointments in your life. We all can think back to a five, ten, twenty years ago and think to ourselves, "how did I get through that?" It is so easy to go back to what hurt us. It doesn't mean we haven't moved on, it just means that it was significant to us. We are overcomers.

I was born to an alcoholic mother that drank while pregnant. I had so much trouble in school. I couldn't read and my grades were the painful truth to that reality. I had trouble concentrating and understanding anything. Should I continue to blame my mother? Yes, she could have made a better decision, but she didn't and that is that. She died 13 years ago and left my life when I was three. So I never really hung on to any hurt or anger. I literally just learned to live life without her. I'm an overcomer.

My father was the parent I knew growing up. He was controlling and abusive. I was a sensitive little red-headed girl and I feel like he knew he could control me the most. My life was filled with hurtful comments and horrible beatings (spankings if that makes anyone feel better). I call them beatings because I was left brused and bloodied at times. When I left my home to go to college that is where the relationship ended.  I have forgave him years ago and moved on with life.  I'm an overcomer.

At this point, some of you may be saying, "I had it worse than that!" I am sorry for that, but...you are an overcomer.

Having a child with cerebral palsy or any disability is overwhelming. I am feeling exhausted and just down this weekend. Tired and "over it". "Where is my white flag" kind of feeling. Having "normal" children makes you feel this way too.

But you know what? Tomorrow is a brand new day. All the kids go back to school and I get some time.

I could be bitter about this life that I have. Trust me, I have been bitter. Bitter about my childhood and Lizzy's situation. But I realized that being like that was turning me into a different person. A person that always had something negative to say. I was not listening to others anymore. Why would I want to be that kind of person? I didn't.

I believe that you can overcome anything! Anything. Do YOU believe that?

I am an overcomer. Don't quit, don't give in you're an overcomer.




Friday, April 26, 2013

Running At The Speed Of Life!

Life has been busy here. I am having trouble finding time to sit and write. Our children are getting to the ages where we are running them everywhere. I love this season of our lives. I would rather run them to soccer and sit with Lizzy in the sunshine. I turned 40 this week and promised my husband that I would be a "yes" man from here on out. That means taking Lizzy where we go. I usually say "I'll stay here with the bug." 

So we have been running at the speed of life!

Our sweet Lizzy (yours too) is getting big. She is healthy and happy! That's her! Whenever someone asks how she is, that is the response I give. I am so blessed to have this teenager the way she is. She grounds me....all of us. Makes me appreciate all things. How can I not thank God for her? Does she depend completely on me? Yes. Who doesn't want that feeling? To be wanted and needed ALL THE TIME! C'mon, it's kind of a selfish thing, but this is his plan for me and I couldn't do this without him. I see Jesus in Lizzy's eyes. Warm, tender, and loving. 

She is still getting oxygen therapy monthly. We bumped up to 10 treatments a month to see if the seizures will completely disappear and what else might happen. We still have seizures, which stinks! Her seizures are only brought on when she is startled. So don't sneak up behind her and yell "BOO" please. 



Doesn't she look different? She will be 14 this year and I just can't believe it. Jack told me the other day that he will take care of Lizzy forever. Made me cry. He just looked at me like he did something wrong. I said "no buddy, you said something beautiful." 

Here is a video that I took last week while we were at the park swinging.

video

She hasn't said mama again. I say it everyday with enthusiasm hoping to hear it. I'm happy to have heard it, so I'm good:-)



We are about a month from summer break. Going to try and get her some new pool stuff. I will do better at keeping you up with what is going on with her. YES, I will. 

God Bless!


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