Sunday, October 27, 2013

Overcomer

Play this while you read this post! If you are on a mobile device, the video won't play. 

If you are........breathing, then you have had disappointments in your life. We all can think back to a five, ten, twenty years ago and think to ourselves, "how did I get through that?" It is so easy to go back to what hurt us. It doesn't mean we haven't moved on, it just means that it was significant to us. We are overcomers.

I was born to an alcoholic mother that drank while pregnant. I had so much trouble in school. I couldn't read and my grades were the painful truth to that reality. I had trouble concentrating and understanding anything. Should I continue to blame my mother? Yes, she could have made a better decision, but she didn't and that is that. She died 13 years ago and left my life when I was three. So I never really hung on to any hurt or anger. I literally just learned to live life without her. I'm an overcomer.

My father was the parent I knew growing up. He was controlling and abusive. I was a sensitive little red-headed girl and I feel like he knew he could control me the most. My life was filled with hurtful comments and horrible beatings (spankings if that makes anyone feel better). I call them beatings because I was left brused and bloodied at times. When I left my home to go to college that is where the relationship ended.  I have forgave him years ago and moved on with life.  I'm an overcomer.

At this point, some of you may be saying, "I had it worse than that!" I am sorry for that, but...you are an overcomer.

Having a child with cerebral palsy or any disability is overwhelming. I am feeling exhausted and just down this weekend. Tired and "over it". "Where is my white flag" kind of feeling. Having "normal" children makes you feel this way too.

But you know what? Tomorrow is a brand new day. All the kids go back to school and I get some time.

I could be bitter about this life that I have. Trust me, I have been bitter. Bitter about my childhood and Lizzy's situation. But I realized that being like that was turning me into a different person. A person that always had something negative to say. I was not listening to others anymore. Why would I want to be that kind of person? I didn't.

I believe that you can overcome anything! Anything. Do YOU believe that?

I am an overcomer. Don't quit, don't give in you're an overcomer.




Friday, April 26, 2013

Running At The Speed Of Life!

Life has been busy here. I am having trouble finding time to sit and write. Our children are getting to the ages where we are running them everywhere. I love this season of our lives. I would rather run them to soccer and sit with Lizzy in the sunshine. I turned 40 this week and promised my husband that I would be a "yes" man from here on out. That means taking Lizzy where we go. I usually say "I'll stay here with the bug." 

So we have been running at the speed of life!

Our sweet Lizzy (yours too) is getting big. She is healthy and happy! That's her! Whenever someone asks how she is, that is the response I give. I am so blessed to have this teenager the way she is. She grounds me....all of us. Makes me appreciate all things. How can I not thank God for her? Does she depend completely on me? Yes. Who doesn't want that feeling? To be wanted and needed ALL THE TIME! C'mon, it's kind of a selfish thing, but this is his plan for me and I couldn't do this without him. I see Jesus in Lizzy's eyes. Warm, tender, and loving. 

She is still getting oxygen therapy monthly. We bumped up to 10 treatments a month to see if the seizures will completely disappear and what else might happen. We still have seizures, which stinks! Her seizures are only brought on when she is startled. So don't sneak up behind her and yell "BOO" please. 



Doesn't she look different? She will be 14 this year and I just can't believe it. Jack told me the other day that he will take care of Lizzy forever. Made me cry. He just looked at me like he did something wrong. I said "no buddy, you said something beautiful." 

Here is a video that I took last week while we were at the park swinging.

video

She hasn't said mama again. I say it everyday with enthusiasm hoping to hear it. I'm happy to have heard it, so I'm good:-)



We are about a month from summer break. Going to try and get her some new pool stuff. I will do better at keeping you up with what is going on with her. YES, I will. 

God Bless!


Sunday, January 13, 2013

I am so happy. A new year. New memories. New experiences. New resolutions. Another year with our Lizzy.

photo courtesy of Necessary Photography

We had a wonderful Christmas. Lizzy enjoys all the excitement and laughing around her. We never wrap her toys due to her frustration of wanting that toy immediately. So we just put them in a big bag and she dumps them! Her favorite toy was a classic in our house. Her 'beep beep beep, let's go" toy! I found it at a consignment shop in town. 


This toy is the best. It lights up, vibrates, and plays music. I am so thankful for consignment shops. She goes through toys because of her little drooling issues.



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I know that our time with Lizzy is short. She lost one of her classmates last week and it just broke my heart. He was 12 and had many of the same issues as Liz. My heart aches for his parents. He had seizures back to back and he just couldn't recover from them. His name was James and he loved to sing. I'm comforted in knowing that James is healed and sitting with Jesus tonight.......singing.

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We had some fun over Christmas break. NASCAR Speedpark with Lizzy! Wow, that was fun.



It's difficult taking a child with special needs......OUT OF THE HOUSE. My husband always says "Let's bring Lizzy!" with the enthusiasm of a 5 year old. I'm always like "eh, nah!" with the enthusiasm of a woman in her late 30's:-) Not this time. I was like "we're in!!!!" She had the best time. We have to get our kids out there and experience the fun "hard" stuff. It was difficult getting her in and out of the cars. Lifting dead weight isn't good for anyone's back! She is just no help at all. We are always saying to Lizzy, "thanks for the help big girl!" I am so glad we took her with us. 

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Emily, Lizzy's younger sister, had a resolutions project to complete. This was her essay.

2013 Resolutions

  In 2013, I have a few terms or promises for this year. The most important resolution is to nurture my big sister, Lizzy. She is 13 years old and goes to Forest Brook Middle.
  One thing that my mom does in order to take care of her is to feed her. She likes to eat roman noodles, oatmeal, macaroni and cheese, and rice. I do it sometimes, but now it is my resolution so, I have to do it all the time.
   Sometimes when she gets up early, she gets kind of bored. So she gets all of the toys out and plays with them. When everyone is up, we come in and it looks like a tornado went across this room! So another resolution would be to clean her room.
   Lizzy wears about 3 outfits a day. She also wets her bed. There is a lot of laundry. I will gather her laundry and take it to be washed. After my mom washes her clothes, I will put it away in her dresser.
   Lizzy likes to be snuggled, wrestled, and played with, that makes her happy. This year I would like to spend more time to playing with her. I like to hug and kiss her because she is my first and my only sister and I love her.
   These are my 2013 resolutions. I want to do these everyday to help my mom and spend time with my sister, Lizzy.




I am so proud of my Em! Her heart is so pure. She wants to make a difference. She sees her sister and doesn't care what her disability is. She still calls Lizzy her big sister even though she is our baby. I love you Em! She wants to read this in class without hesitation and my heart just explodes with pride.

I pray that your 2013 is full of joy.
God Bless.

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